i'm not the complaining type of girl... but everytime i look around i find out (once againg) that most of my friends are those type of people... and the worst part is... i HATE that kind of people!

i hate people who live their lives with the sole purpose of other people feeling sorry for them... those whos favorite line is "my life is so horrible, all the bad things happen to me and everybody treats me wrong... nobody loves me and i can't do anything right because i'm too stupid... and ugly!"... that last line is used by girls mostly...

at the beggining i always try to help them out, you know?, they seem to be needing help desperately, they seem to be lacking of self-steem... but then the time passes... and i'm not talking about days or weeks... but months!!.. and the keep doing that!!, despite the realize and know its not true and lots of people have it worse... no, they keep complaining just for the pleasure of doing it!

fuck them!

i`m so tired of this!, i always seem to atrack this kind of people... damn!... i am so fucking tired of being the good friend who is there to cheer them up... stupid people!... and of course, there have been times when i've been feeling really bad... like, i don't even care if i go in my pijamas to the university because i'm so sad... but do they even care????.... right... you guessed... NO! they don't!

they don't give a damn about me, they see me kind of sad and some just ignore me, others get out of my way until i'm in the mood to cheer them up again... and others (including my most recent close-friend) just get MORE depressed... of purpose of course... so  if someone see us together she "wins" in the who's-most-depressed contest...

i'm so mad, so tired of this.... i'm not saying i don't have some good friends who are there no matter what, in the good and in the bad, and don't only look for someone who they can use her shoulder to cry on... i have those friends... 2 friends who are real friends, who i can count with to go out to party or to talk or to cry or to laugh.... TWO!!!... my best friends... one of them lives in another city, and since i hate speaking on the phone, it's hard enough to have good conversations on the internet, via e mail, because she doesn't connect that much, and because speaking through msn isn't really communicating.... and the other one have a horrible schedule, so we can't see each other as much, and when we do, he is always with his girlfriend... who i used to consider one of my friends before, and who belongs to the group of people i've been talking about.... shit!

i know i'm complainig right now, but you know? sometimes the glass is so full that something has to spill...... don't even know if that make sense.... 

ok, enough... its so good to write this down, and i will love so much that my "friends" would read this, but this would only give them one more reason to suffer... and i'm in no fucking mood to deal with them

PS: i will talk about my friend's girlfriend in the next entry... i just dont want to now because i'm just too pissed with this other thing right now